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Taking the leap or jumping over. What does it mean to jump over? lf you get your legs into the ground and you get the energy down, then you can spring up. As we do our work many of you expect some release of the armor and life will be better. Doesn't happen that way! Some things get better and many of you - because there's some release of energy and greater movement in the body - make more money in your practice. It brings a certain prosperity and many of you stop there. „Now I can maybe have a new Mercedes". But that breaks down in a while. As the energy in your body moves more profoundly, the spring inside gets tighter so that the time comes as the spring gets tighter step by step that you are ready for the jump - to jump. But some of you as the spring gets tighter, without thinking the organism says „Wait... a minute! Maybe my life will change. Oi! I don't know how!" So you unwind the spring. You withdraw from the movement of life. You get cold inside. But on the surface you are still able to move superficially. You have that choice. You keep going and the body, the organism builds ready to find ... you don't know what. Nobody can tell you what.

lt reminds me of my work with drug addicts many years ago, when I lived in a community of drug addicts, where I worked with them for ten years. We would say to the "stupidities", in trying to motivate change. We would say „You are on top of a roof of a big building and three feet away - one meter away - is another building. Now jump from here to there!" Three feet (all of them could jump three feet). But they would say "But it's a thousand feet down!" having nothing to do with the three feet. So it is with the whole body. A number of you are at that very dangerous point. It's time to jump the three feet. But some of you won't do that. Which is okay. Each one is responsible for his/her own life and I don't consider that if you don't jump that you are bad.There's no bad, no good. You have responsibility for your life.

Now what is this big leap? This big leap is: to breathe, to accept the breath as far as it goes, to let the breath go further, to heat up this room, to feel the sensations (and especially as the breath and the armor is loosened) in the pelvis. To say "Ohoh, how do I live with thisl" And that requires that you step outside your culture and say „Okay, what the government says, what the church says, what my father says, what my mother says, that's all there." Once you ask the question "What does my body say?" Then you are outside the culture and then there are decisions to make. And the decision is „Okay, body, how are we going to live?" And some of you will think „Oh, my God, I can't live in the world this way!"

That's bullshit! You will find many, many reasons to not live by your body. Now, living by your body is not a new idea. Jesus lived by his body. Then the peopie who became his followers, who would not live with their bodies, created a business called churcb. Now these armored people, who were unable to live with their body, substituted having power and they made rules, they created prisons. And the rules were: honor your father and your mother, only have one lover, work hard and pay money to the church, don't do anything that the priest says is bad. And remember that the pope is watching you all the time. Now they created those rules, which is okay; that's what powerful people do. And people accept it. Wonderful book that you can read by Reich - Mass Psychology of Fascism. All kinds of fascism, red, black, brown, it doesn't matter. It's the acceptance - WE ACCEPT - the morality of their body!!! So when you begin to accept the movement of your own body, you are outside the culture, without shame - without shame.

So the leap is accepting that the force of life, wherever it will lead, will be an exciting life, will be a full life. And it may look very, very strange to people around you, and bring a lot of gossip all around you.- „Oh, look what she does...", „...did you hear" „ and did you know..." Because the people who will not accept the morality and the movement of their own body: energy keeps building - that's the nature of this organism and it must somehow come out. Now you accept your body; it comes out in many ways, as part of the universe. It is automatically religious - not church - but religious because always you are living "Who am I in the universe?". But the people who can't do that, they must break out and hit out because otherwise their bodies will explode. And they do explode. It's called cancer, AIDS, and all the other symptoms of disease.

We will keep coming back to this, remembering always that you have a choice in this work. And do not play games with me. (l don't care if you play games with everybody else.) With words, "This is too difficult!" Oh, people say many things in order to leave this arena, but it's always for only one reason. Life begins to be very very full, the fire grows and oh, they call the fire engine: "Put water on itl Put it out!". They can't say „I don't want life!". They say "Oh no,I would rather talk about dreams." „I would rather go to the beauty parlor". And then these people leave our work.

I don't think badly of them because we each have the responsibility for ourselves. And also, this kind of decision to not go any further is really not made by the head, by reason. The organism stops - then it must give words. „Oh, the therapist treated me too hard." On and on and on. So I just want to encourage you to see yourself and to feel yourself as a LIVING organism, not as a verbal organism because language is the most subtle form of energy release. If it is not supported by the fire of total life energy, then it becomes fashion. And we need words, it's one of the ways we communicate. But as you accept the life in you, your language will change.

 

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